quick note: (1)sorry guys for not being active for past few months or weeks; but since i haven't really got much things to do til' i go back to school next year.. i'll be flooding this page. (2) i'll also take time to edit the page as it lacks some few things, such as (a) follow button (b) viewing my old posts (c) picture or gallery page.
Anyway i have been recently discharged from the hospital. i stayed there for 6month(198 days) it was a totally new experience and trust me it was one crazy ups and downs. In the midst of the unfortunate event i discovered many things about myself and about the value of life. Now a days i take that tragedy and look at it as a big blessing to my life.. its hard to explain but i tell you now it had opened my eyes up to so many things.
i'd like to share you one crazy thing I got from this experience... when your in a hospital the thought of death and life have to come up eventually right. well there was a patient next to me who was told that he has a serious case and he has two options. one was to leave it as it be and go through life that you have left or two go through an operation where in the midst of the procedure there are a lot of chance that you may lose your life... (it pierced me to hear that information being given to the old man) the old man decided that he doesn't want to go through the operation and left the hospital with his loving wife.... this may sound weird and absolutely crazy, but i felt pity for myself and everyone else.
the thing is, now the old man has a chance to do everything right just before he leaves his family behind, he has a chance to just devote his few days fully to God and he has a chance to fully share his last few days with his loving wife. How crazy! is that, he now knows the time he have left and have a chance to just capture that momment and be totally prepared.....
We don't know our deadline. I can die tomorrow. you can die tomorrow. we can die tonight.. but when you die do you think there is enough evidence that you left behind to pronounce you______ guilty of being totally in-love with God. when you reach your deadline do you think you would be prepared. when you find yourself cornered do you think you are ready to accept it. we live life distracted from God's love and his mission for us, but when the time comes im sure and i hope you want to have done something that contributed in expanding God's kingdom.
i have read a book called "crazy love" by Francis chan. and in that book there was a story of girl who devoted her life to God in a young age. She wrote an essay that when she dies she wants to be remembered to have accomplish something so big... at the age of 15 she died and in her funeral 250+ students had attendend the ceremony.. later on most of this students had given their life to God and this wouldn't have happened if this little girl had just ignored God's mission for her. she accomplish something so big from loving God and now she leaves the world with surely enough witness to make her Guilty of being in-love with God.
Now take that and just think about your life.. our life is just a vapour that can vanish in a mere second. some of us, most of us infact will never have a letter delivered to our door notifying us of our deadline. i encourage you to make something worth of your life and truly Love God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
the Friends
Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. Like wise, two people lying close together can keep each other warm. But how can one be warm alone? A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.
We all know the significance friendship has in our lives. But often some miss the mark, often we get hurt from those who doesn't look at what remarkable blessing they have. Friendship bring joy to our lives, but as joy arise, pain and sorrow must also be at present. Shocking ain't it... to actually look at the flaws of friendship; sometimes this flaws are the usual clichè of teenage life: gossip, depression, betrayal, jealousy and Time.
I don't want to keep writing as you should know how disgusting those five flaws I mentioned. if you think this is quite a negative post... well it maybe is, but I wanted us to look at both side so that then we understand its fullness; "you can't be a good guy if you don't know what's bad" (this is why I wanted to point out the flaws;) here's some quotes to leave you thinking.
A true friend stabs you at the front.
Sometimes you put walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.
Proverbs17:17
A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help.
Envy is the great dividing force of friendship.
Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. Like wise, two people lying close together can keep each other warm. But how can one be warm alone? A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.
We all know the significance friendship has in our lives. But often some miss the mark, often we get hurt from those who doesn't look at what remarkable blessing they have. Friendship bring joy to our lives, but as joy arise, pain and sorrow must also be at present. Shocking ain't it... to actually look at the flaws of friendship; sometimes this flaws are the usual clichè of teenage life: gossip, depression, betrayal, jealousy and Time.
I don't want to keep writing as you should know how disgusting those five flaws I mentioned. if you think this is quite a negative post... well it maybe is, but I wanted us to look at both side so that then we understand its fullness; "you can't be a good guy if you don't know what's bad" (this is why I wanted to point out the flaws;) here's some quotes to leave you thinking.
A true friend stabs you at the front.
Sometimes you put walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.
Proverbs17:17
A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help.
Envy is the great dividing force of friendship.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
the Value part II
C.S. Lewis once said "love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even animal."
It's strange reading a quote so pessimistic to loving someone when most people are always searching. But the significance of such message portrays the big risk a lover lays down for their bride/groom. Love is not taken by the mind but taken by the heart which completely seperates it from all the others. I think this is what makes it more difficult to accept the rejection or even betrial of the one it is being layed down for. It's a whole new experience to fall in the quicksand of love or to be put down by the lover themselves as it is not like any other.. harsh. But think about it, do u feel the same heartbreaking pain when you fail science? When you lose a bet? When you fail your driving exam? When trip in a dance performance?
Now imagine someone who tells you (with the full meaning) they love you. Do u ever think of the big couragious act that they commited? Or the amount of thought they put into delivering it to you? Well I posted this part for the reason that I want us all to actually recognize the awful side of love. Look at money it buys you many things, which is good... but have you seen the awful side of it? Well the awful side is the hard work everyone puts into getting that money, which we use somtimes for silly things. Well like love we often don't recognize its awful side that we take away its value most often.
It's strange reading a quote so pessimistic to loving someone when most people are always searching. But the significance of such message portrays the big risk a lover lays down for their bride/groom. Love is not taken by the mind but taken by the heart which completely seperates it from all the others. I think this is what makes it more difficult to accept the rejection or even betrial of the one it is being layed down for. It's a whole new experience to fall in the quicksand of love or to be put down by the lover themselves as it is not like any other.. harsh. But think about it, do u feel the same heartbreaking pain when you fail science? When you lose a bet? When you fail your driving exam? When trip in a dance performance?
Now imagine someone who tells you (with the full meaning) they love you. Do u ever think of the big couragious act that they commited? Or the amount of thought they put into delivering it to you? Well I posted this part for the reason that I want us all to actually recognize the awful side of love. Look at money it buys you many things, which is good... but have you seen the awful side of it? Well the awful side is the hard work everyone puts into getting that money, which we use somtimes for silly things. Well like love we often don't recognize its awful side that we take away its value most often.
Monday, August 24, 2009
the Masterchef
As you all know I'm a captive in the hospital at the momment with an uncommon case. Its been hard but I'm loving it. What I'm grateful from this, is the amount of time I have to be able to submerged myself into reading, writing and in conversations with God. Many say I'm brave to handle this in my age.. But I say "no I am afraid, but I know God is with me. I'm afraid but I say amen'. I know God will be finish when he is done with my sculpting.. And it'll be a masterpiece;) (jkz, it'l be good lol!)
I've learnt from experience and from many people that God does things within his schedule not ours. God doesn't have to perform quick fixes or parlor tricks because we can't handle the quest.He works on his pace, and it usually ends with a good result. You don't pester a master chef while he's in the kitchen...right?
In the book I've read,called Assualted by Joy, I was hit by this analogy the author made and its pretty darn good: "like a masterchef God slow cooks his masterpiece using a lot of ingredients. In my case he uses family, friends, science, music, experiences, time and even books. But there's a twist to the masterpiece. God also asks us to add some ingredients too.. Like faith, hope, and love - especially love."
Crazy huh? Our God isn't just a saviour, creator, sustanier, and king; he's an artist too.=]
I've learnt from experience and from many people that God does things within his schedule not ours. God doesn't have to perform quick fixes or parlor tricks because we can't handle the quest.He works on his pace, and it usually ends with a good result. You don't pester a master chef while he's in the kitchen...right?
In the book I've read,called Assualted by Joy, I was hit by this analogy the author made and its pretty darn good: "like a masterchef God slow cooks his masterpiece using a lot of ingredients. In my case he uses family, friends, science, music, experiences, time and even books. But there's a twist to the masterpiece. God also asks us to add some ingredients too.. Like faith, hope, and love - especially love."
Crazy huh? Our God isn't just a saviour, creator, sustanier, and king; he's an artist too.=]
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
the Value
Have you ever wondered of when and how the three words gain value? As a character I have been able to say it but with not much value, as in a statement eg." Oh men! I love you". With this aspect of me I often get asked how would they know when I say it with value or even when will my three words have the true meaning... I don't know, but I know when I say it it'll be different.
The three words defines many things; risk,struggle,compassion,care,trust and I can go on. But one thing that makes its worth is the signal it shows. It signals that you declare that you believe that your search is done, because you have found the one. I awe in this one value, or aspect of that three word, as it definetly makes one heck of a realisation to its potential to really mean to here it from someone.
Ps:give me a break I was trying to give one idea to its potential. I'll disect and even open it up more in future. Tell me what u think yeah.. Oh and it was suggested for a lovey dovey blog from someone;)
The three words defines many things; risk,struggle,compassion,care,trust and I can go on. But one thing that makes its worth is the signal it shows. It signals that you declare that you believe that your search is done, because you have found the one. I awe in this one value, or aspect of that three word, as it definetly makes one heck of a realisation to its potential to really mean to here it from someone.
Ps:give me a break I was trying to give one idea to its potential. I'll disect and even open it up more in future. Tell me what u think yeah.. Oh and it was suggested for a lovey dovey blog from someone;)
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
the Music
I'm a big fan of the music we have, don't you think music is just so awesome?!.. it was once said to me that when things are in struggle music would just calm things down. I don't really know if its true but i reckon music is just a general aspect that every human can collaborate their feelings with. in result through the rhythm we often just breathe, listen and are taken away from the moment of struggle we are in. it is also a form of in ways we can just forget our surroundings and focus on one thing; hence praise and worship?.
In psalms 148:11-13 it speaks of how no matter who you are we are brought to praise and worship God. no matter if you are a king, adult or even children... if you know me you would know how i would sing randomly(i don't know if im good or bad, if bad sorry) hehe..
anyway i just want everyone to encourage to take a read of the text in the picture and elaborate what does it mean to you? what do you think the greatest thing about music?
if you can't read it it say : "Music is The Weapon of the Future"
Saturday, March 7, 2009
the Red light
Being in the hospital has became a life hitting experience. I was stripped from the two burdens that I took on in life and has taken life on a whole new perspective. I found out I as a person wants to travel,explore more of my home country,to study interior designing and so much more.
It's hard to put on writings what my whole new attitude of life is but I want you to JUST STOP FOR A MOMMENT. then look at your life and ask yourself "are you happy with where you are and where your going"
It's important and helpful sometimes to just stop and think because we often become overwhelmed and get lost from what as a person we desire to be and do.
It's hard to put on writings what my whole new attitude of life is but I want you to JUST STOP FOR A MOMMENT. then look at your life and ask yourself "are you happy with where you are and where your going"
It's important and helpful sometimes to just stop and think because we often become overwhelmed and get lost from what as a person we desire to be and do.
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